100 Things About Me-2009

I don't even know where to start.  This will probably be more interesting for me to write than for you to read, but please, proceed anyway! :-)

1.  My name is Kelly Marie.

2.  My name was chosen by my mom's first husband, when she was 18.  She divorced at 19 and married my father when she was 27.  She stuck with my name all those years.

3.  My parents divorced when I was 10, after 11 unhappy years of marriage.  I always hear other people say they're sad their parents divorced, but I couldn't have been happier as a kid to see them split. 

4.  I have one little sister, Katie.  I despised her when we were younger, she annoyed me to the core.  But now I see that she was just always looking up to me and trying to be like me.  This isn't the case now, but we get along pretty well these days.  I'm so happy for this.

5.  I'm a big family person, and daydream at least once a day about what it'll be like when I have one of my own. 

6.  I'm a big homebody.  I like the comfort of being in my own area. 

7.  I can also be very social, but usually only comfortable in groups where I know the majority of the people.

8.  I get bad anxiety when I'm around a lot of people I don't know, especially in party settings.  I clam up and get very shy.  I have gotten a lot better with talking to people I don't know, but that feeling still comes out every now and then.

9.  My favorite color is purple.

10.  I have a purple purse, purple wallet, and purple phone (to be reactivated tomorrow).

11.  I frequently wear black clothing.  Not because I'm goth or anything, but because it makes me look thinner.

12.  If I see an article of clothing that I like but I don't like the color, I'll buy it anyway and use RIT dye to change the color.  I even dyed my down comforter. 

13.  I love to paint, and decorate.  These go hand in hand a lot of the time, I have painted some of my lamp shades, some lamp stands, a table, and various other things around my house. 

14.  I have big plans for when I actually have a house of my own.  My mailbox will either be painted or covered in mosaic tiles, my front porch steps will be covered in mosaic tiles, and I've been planning out some murals and things I want to paint in the house.  Every room will have a touch of me. 

15.  I've been doing hair for 5 years, and although I love what I do, I'm considering a career change.  At the rate I'm making money, it'd be years and years before I'm able to simply live comfortably, much less raise a family.  I'm very good at what I do, and I work in a beautiful salon, but I struggle with money between every single paycheck.  I'm 25 years old, and I feel like I should be making much more money right now.

16.  I could probably make more money doing hair at a different salon, one that's primary clientele is walk ins (versus my salon which is primarily appointment based) but I actually think that I am too much of a hair snob to take a step down.  I've had extensive training from very experienced people in this industry, and I really think that it would take a huge punch to my ego to move to a lower end salon. 

17.  Before I started doing hair, I sold insurance.  My entire family sells insurance, but at the age of 18, it definitely wasn't on my top list of choice careers.  Now that I'm getting older and having to provide for myself, I'm regretting the day I let my insurance license lapse.  It's time to grow up and get a big girl job. 

18.  By 'big girl job,'  I'm not at all putting down the hair industry.  I love it.  Absolutely love it.  I've definitely found a niche for myself.  But money is pretty parallel to my survival!

19.  Romantically, I'm completely hopeless.  I've had 2 bad relationship in the past 5 years, and I long to just find someone to settle down with and come home to.

20.  Since I was about 19, I've identified myself as being a lesbian.  I have had mindful slip ups a couple of times, wondering if maybe I'm looking for love in the wrong place, but they are always thoughts that are very short lived.  I know who I am, and I know I love women, inside and out.

21.  When I was younger, I was more free with myself and my love life, but I've gotten much more conservative with myself and my sexual behavior through the years.  I don't enjoy emotionless sex anymore, it's just not worth it to me these days.  I'd much rather wait until there's something there, something worth celebrating.

22.  And having said that!  Let me say this.  I love sex and everything about it.  I think a good sexual appetite is healthy and a part of a normal healthy life, as long as you're not hurting anyone.  I'm just more protective of my hoo-hoo these days.  Or maybe it's that I'm more protective of my heart. 

23.  I've been living in the same town that I grew up in, all my life, and as of this year, I no longer talk to one person that I went to high school with.  For the most part, I was never a fan of the kids I went to school with.  I went to the 'rich' high school, with a lot of snobby and mean kids, and there were a lot of drugs.  I never felt that I fit in, and grew up thinking I wasn't good enough because I didn't fit in with these kids.  High school was the worst 4 years of my life. 

24.  To be completely honest, I sometimes still get that old feeling back of thinking I'm not 'cool' or good enough.  It all stems from where I grew up.  But I then remind myself that I've made completely new friends and lasting friendships based on who I am now.  But there's still that feeling sometimes when I meet someone new, that shy feeling of wondering if they'll think I'm worth their time.

25.  Despite that feeling, I'm confident in myself in a lot of things, and it apparently shows.  A good friend of mine told me this a couple months ago, that she wishes she were as confident as I am.  I was completely surprised when she said this. 

26.  I'm very close with my mom, and if it weren't for her, I'd much more seriously consider moving away from this city. 

27.  I think about moving away a lot.  Financially, it'd be in impossibility right now.  But I would like to at some point. 

28.  I'm not very close with my dad, but the one thing I did get from him is our taste in music.  He raised me on classic rock, and I wouldn't have had it any other way. 

29.  The Beatles were the all time favorite, and my sister and I are going to be getting tattoos for it.  They're meant to be 'sister' tattoos.  Hers will say "All You Need Is Love," and mine will say "Love Is All You Need."  These will both probably be on our lower backs.  We're trying to talk my dad into paying for them, but it's going to take some more coaxing.  He's not totally exited about tattoos haha. 

30.  I'm only to number 30, and I need a break.  I'm gonna do some painting.  One of my favorite movies is Across the Universe, and I just turned it on when the 'strawberry fields forever' scene was playing.  He's flinging paint all over the room during this song, and it always makes me wanna paint.  Will return and finish this later!

31.  I totally and completely believe in karma. 

32.  I was raised Christian, but don't agree with it.  To be honest, I never have.  I hated going to church when I was young.  In my teenage years, I went just for the purpose of making friends, and I even kissed my first boy in church.  After high school, I joined the music team at our church, just so that I could sing on stage, not for the purpose of praising God.  It was never about that for me.  I don't go to church anymore, except on Christmas, just out of respect for my mother, and for the sake of tradition.

33.  I don't agree with organized religion.  For the most part, the people that I've come into contact with who claim to be devout Christians are the people who end up excusing themselves from punishment for less than respectable behavior. 
34.  I think that life is about being a good person, no matter what your faith.  This is where karma comes into play. 

35.  I get emotional over silly things, and stay pretty calm during actual big things.  For instance, I cry sometimes when people win things on The Price Is Right.  I get so excited I guess, just to see other people that happy and excited.  No, I'm not kidding, I couldn't make this up if I tried.  On the other hand, when my grandma passed away, I was really calm and collected when my uncle told me the news.  I was a mess at the funeral, but it took a few days for it to sink in, and for me to shed the tears. 

36.  Back to the religion issue, I see myself being much more spiritual than religious.  To me, it's something very personal.  I feel overwhelmed and thankful for my life here when I feel at one with nature, if that makes any sense.  All I need is a sunny day on the beach listening to the sound of the waves, or to see a rainbow, or feel the breeze through my hair, and I'm all set.  I can just look up at whatever's up there, if there is something up there, and feel nothing but beautiful and lucky and healthy.

37.  I'll use this number... because it's sort of my lucky number.  My lucky number is actually 137.  Yes, i know it's odd, and the story behind it is kinda funny.  It was my first school bus number when I was in first through third grade.  My bus driver, Ms. Pat, had a full stereo system installed in the bus, and would blast music the whole way home everyday.  We all had so much fun on that bus, and the number has just always stuck with me.  Whenever I happen to look at the clock and it says 1:37, chances are I'm having a great day.

38.  I have a habit of starting books and not finishing them.  Right now I've got 3 books open. 

39.  I absolutely hate doing laundry.  I can do any kind of chore around the house with a smile on my face, but just not laundry. 

40.  I can't walk in high heels.  I look ridiculous, and usually end up tripping on something. 

41.  I'm totally unorganized with money.  As a hairstylist, I get cash tips handed to me often, and usually just stuff them in my pocket.  While I was just doing the dreaded laundry, I found $40 in the dryer.

42.  I absolutely hate any kind of clicking, beeping, or any other kind of annoying noises.  Repetitive noises are like nails on a chalkboard to me.  It's become an ongoing joke in my salon, and my coworkers will click pens or tap the front desk in an effort to get a rise out of me.  I literally flip out and I can't even help it.  haha.

43.  It has come to my recent attention that when something annoys me, the noises or otherwise, I immediately say 'STOP IT!' in a tone that is about an octive higher than my normal voice.  I was never actually aware that I did this on a regular basis, until we were playing a drinking game at the neighbor's house.  We were playing drunken jenga (my friend and I wrote funny drinking game things on each piece of the jenga game, and you have to pull one piece out, complete the task, and then stack it on top, like regular jenga) and one of the pegs she pulled said 'impersonate the person to your left'.  I was to her left, and she immediately started screaming 'STOP IT!  STOP IT!  STOP IT!' really loud and high pitched.  I looked at her like... huh?  and of course everyone started laughing, because it was completely accurate.

44.  I love tomatoes, but hate red sauce. 

45.  I love cooking, but hate going to the grocery store. 

46.  Actually I hate any type of shopping.  If I could do all my shopping online I would be a happy girl.

47.  I especially hate going to the mall.  I hate the crowds, and all the fluorescent lighting, I get an instant headache anytime I go in there. 

48.  I can be a procrastinator.  Probably why this post is taking me so long to complete, even though I know I want to.

49.  I have a guitar, but don't know how to play it. 

50.  I did ballet for eight years when I was younger.  My biggest regret in life is quitting.  I was always the youngest girl in all my classes, was very advanced for my age.  But when my parents got divorced, we moved to the other side of the city so my mom couldn't drive me to my ballet academy as often as I had been going, so I had to try to find another academy near me.  Even at 12 years old, I was too advanced for any school that my mom gave me the option of going to, so I quit.  I wish I had just stuck with it until I was old enough to drive myself to the good school.  My teachers at the good school had danced in ballet's all over Europe, and were from Italy.  Nothing like anything you'd find here.

51.  I also used to play the piano when I was younger.  But I quit that because my piano teacher was a creepy old lady that lived in our neighborhood.  I hated going to her house for lessons.  I would like to start playing again though.

52.  When I was in middle school, the movie "Titanic" had just come out and was really big.  I was in the chorus and of course, we sang the Titanic song.  I played the piano for the song while the chorus sang it. I know how to read music, but when I'm playing a song, I play it from memory.  I'll only check in with the actual music on front of me if I'm still learning the song, but I never follow it note for note. We performed this 3 times during school hours for the different grades, and then the big performance was at night. 

53.  During the big performance at night, the auditorium was completely filled with all of our parents and friends that decided to come.  My hands were a little shaky, and in the middle of the song, I forgot where I was in the song.  I completely froze, and the whole chorus turned around to stare at me along with the whole auditorium of people.  I had to flip through pages of music to figure out where I was while the whole room was silent and staring at me.  Finally found my place about 30 seconds later (it felt like an hour) and finished the song out.  We got a standing ovation hahaha.

54.  Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday.  It's the big holiday in my family for us all to get together.  Everyone in my family can cook, and we all pitch in.  It's always the absolute best meal of the year.

55.  I was a vegetarian for a year.  I quit when Thanksgiving came around.  Maybe I'm weak, or maybe our turkeys are always just that good. 

56.  I want to become a vegetarian again.  Thanksgiving is only a couple months away.  I've cut out red meat, I'll cut out poultry after.  :-)

57.  If I wasn't a hairstylist, I'd probably never do my hair. 

58.  I like my hair to be curly and messy and even a little frizzy sometimes.  Very anti-hairstylist.  I'd never style any of my clients to have hair like mine haha.  Everyone wants their hair to be straight and smooth.  I think that's boring, on me anyway. 

59.  I like big jewelry.  The dainty stuff was never for me. 

60.  I'd rather have jewelry that's big and fake, rather than small and 'real'.  I'd be happy with cubic zurconia for my engagement ring, as long as it's my style.  Or actually...  I want a big ole' amethyst lol. 

61.  I don't like spiders, but I love snakes.

62.  I saw the second Lord of the Rings movie before I saw the first.

63.  I'd wear flip flops everyday if I could. 

64.  I'm not a sweets person.  I really have to be in the mood for something sweet. 

65.  My weakness is pasta with any kind of cream sauce.  MMMMmmmmm...

66.  I very rarely follow trends in clothing.  I especially hate those shoes that are 'in' right now.  The flat ones with the straps that go up around your ankle.  I don't think they're flattering on anyone. 

67.  I value my alone time.  I may have already said something like this, but there's no one in my house today and I'm totally loving it.

68.  My maternal grandfather's just been diagnosed with Alzheimer's.  I've never been close with him.  I don't get emotional about it until I see my mom get emotional about it, then my heart aches.  I hate to see that woman hurting.

69.  I'm not a fan of video games.  I think people should spend more time outside, or with an actual hobby, like they used to way back when.  I hate that my 33 year old roommate and neighbor sit in the house all day and play video games.  there are days when they'll only leave the house to get a new video game. 

70.  As of 9-8-09, I'm an auntie for the first time.  My step brother and his wife just had a beautiful baby boy, Logan David.  I get to go see him tomorrow. 

71.  I have a very sarcastic sense of humor.  It sometimes takes a while for people to get used to.  One of my exes said that for the first month we knew each other, she thought I was just a major bitch, rather than a total softy with a slick sense of humor.

72.  I used to want to go to nursing school, but I don't think I could handle it.  I can handle blood and all that, but the site of broken bones literally makes me weak and nauseous.  I also don't think I could deal with seeing people die right in front of me. 

73.  I love the smell of haircolor (well the kind we use at our salon anyway).  I love how I can smell it all day after I get my hair colored. 

74.  I'd much rather be freezing than too hot.  I absolutely hate sweating, it makes me feel disgusting.  Unless I'm working out, that's different.  You know what I mean.

75. But!  only because there's an exception to every rule, I love going in saunas (as long as there's a cool pool or shower to jump into after).  But after all is said and done, my skin always feels so clean after sitting in a sauna, cuz it purges all the impurities from your pores.  Love it.

76.  I hate it when my skin doesn't feel super smooth on my face.  I scrub my skin with one of those shower gloves everyday to get the dead skin off.  Even if I miss one day of doing this, my skin feels gross to me. 

77.  I was always the only person I knew that hated sweet tea, so I always just thought that I hated tea.  For the first time, I tried unsweetened tea about a 6 months ago, and now it's my favorite drink.  Turns out I just hated how sweet it was haha.

78.  I hate ketchup by itself, but I love ketchup and mayo mixed together.  This is the best dipping sauce for anything that you'd normally just dip in ketchup.

79.  I'm a very touchy feely and affectionate person.  I love touching and giving hugs to everyone and cuddling with those I'm close with.  I even hug a lot of my clients.  My boss is the same way.  He always says he has to get in 10 hugs a day. 

80.  I read the book "The 5 Love Languages" and realized that 'physical touch' and 'quality time' are the two biggest ways that I feel loved and give love to others. 

81.  I'm a taurus, and my sign is pretty much dead on accurate with who I am. 

82.  Whenever I start dating someone, I find out what their sign is, and go to Astrologyzone.com to see if we're compatible.  So far, that site has also been dead on accurate.  My last three exes were geminis (who I'm supposed to not be compatible with) and that site pretty much told me all the reasons why we wouldn't work out as a couple.  It was exactly those reasons why we didn't work.  I haven't always believed in astrology, I mean it's silly if you think about it, but yeah, I'm listenin now. 

83.  I have a strong need to feel self sufficient, but also a need to feel taken care of when I'm in a relationship.  
84. My year!  I was born in 1984.

85.  My favorite man in the whole world is Bailey, my old man cat.  I've had him since I was 10. 

86.  I'm definitely a cat person.  I like dogs too, but would prefer to always have cats around.  I just love their attitudes and quirkiness, and they also smell 10 times better.  I love the smell of cat breath.  If I end up not marrying (highly doubt this, but still) I'll probably be one of those crazy cat ladies with like 12 cats. lol.

87.  The sound of a cat purring always calms me down, especially if i'm cuddling with the kitty and I can actually feel the purr.  One of my simple joys in life.

88. I'm not into sports or athletics, but I love going to football and baseball games.  I just love the atmosphere and being with that many people cheering something on.  So much fun.  But I'll never be able to actually follow a game haha.

89.  When I started hair school, my hair was halfway down my back.  When I got out of hairschool, it was up near my chin.  If you want to keep your long hair, don't go to hair school.  This scenario happened to EVERY SINGLE girl in there.  Not one girl got out with long hair.

90.  When it comes to politics, I'm very liberal when it comes to social issues.  Extremely liberal with social issues.  But I also truly believe that everyone should have to work for what they have or want.  I'm 25, broke as shit, and seriously struggling with money, but you'll never see me take a 'hand out' from the government.  It's way too abused in this country.

91.  I definitely believe in abortion, and think that it's the right thing to do in some cases.  I had one when I was 18, and it was the best decision I ever made.  It definitely was difficult to deal with, but I wouldn't change that decision.

92.  I know I want kids, but this world we live in scares me to have to raise kids in.  I know I'll be a strict parent, and now that I'm older, I understand why my mom was strict as well.

93.  I love to knit, but all i know how to do are scarves lol.  yep, just the one straight line.

94.  I'm obsessed with sudoku.

95.  My big dream in life is to own my own coffee shop.  I have the whole place planned out in my head, how it will look and such.  I know i'll also want acoustic live music played in there often, and to have one big wall where local artists can display their work.  Just a couple ideas I have for it.

96.  I really like to spread out when I sleep.  If I sleep in the same bed with you, we must be pretty close.  This isn't because I'm stingy about who I sleep next to, it's because there's a good chance you'll have one of my arms or legs on top of you by morning.

97.  I like my room to be really cool when I sleep.  That way I can cuddle up in my big comforter.  I have a fan on year-round, I don't care how cool it is outside.

98.  I also don't wear any clothes to bed.  I must move around a lot when I sleep because if I'm wearing clothes, I wake up with them all twisted around me and tight.  I hate that.  So if I'm sleeping next to someone I can't be naked around, chances are I'll wake up a few times during the night to have to situate my clothing.

99.  I hate the song 99 red balloons.  Or at least one version of it that has this girl singing with a really high pitched voice.  It's not the original, but it sometimes plays in the salon and I cringe every time and tell our receptionist to go to the next song.  ick.

100!!!!  Wow I made it.  I actually finished this.  It only took 4 separate sittings to do it.  I'll have to make this last one a real humdinger.  Ok here goes:  I have really big boobs but really small nipples.  hahaha.  Apparently, they're pretty hot.  My last ex actually even asked me if I'd show my boobs to her sister who is also gay, just because she was so impressed with them.  Yay me.