Okay that's it.

I'm not going to sit here and feel sorry for myself.  I just moved to Richmond!  This is my life!  Damnit!

SquirtyB is playing the tough love card and tellin me that I need to stop.  I do have friends here and I could have none, you're right. 

And I texted Joy that I've been here for 4 days and that my gf and I are already probably done.  And she said 'well fuck it babe, you got a whole new city to play in!' haha.  PERFECT response.  Totally made me laugh.. and it's true.  I just did this big thing that I've been wanting to do for years, to move away from home.  And I should be embracing it, instead of being upset because my start here is a little different than I thought it would be.  Joy reminded me that I didn't move here for her, and said that I'm an easy friend maker and talented, and the city is 'mine!'  lol.  And I talked to my mom this morning, who I hadn't talked to since I moved here.  She said really similar things basically, and it helps to hear that same thing from a few different people.  It kinda reinforces it in my head.  I'm gonna be ok.  This isn't what I expected, but I am here now, and I moved here for my fresh start.  This life is only what I make it, so I need to MAKE IT!